Mua new year's gonna be spent @ Holiday Inn Orchard & Resort World Sentosa with mua family . :-)
While baobeiz going off to malaysia . Gonna miss her so much , vice versa . Hehehek .

God bless :-(

Ok i am very stress now , becoz i don't wanna face the music i'm gonna get back at school and at home .


Supposed to go for school camp today you see , but i told mummy and daddy last night that i don't want to , so mummy said okay , i was over the moon . And my eyes were glued to the tv till late night coz i thought i won't have to get up early the next day which was today . Anddddd i was sleeping so soundly when dad called @ 8am and started talking frantically , and shouting for me to quickly cab over to school now for the camp as the principal called blahblahblah . I stoned in front of the telephone for a moment and my brain felt dead , i was in my pyjamas , i haven't brush my teeth , neither have i washed my face and i looked horrible . Okay let your imagination run wild , how do you look like when you just woke up and is still half asleep ?

Whatever , so i got very confused and i can't decide whether to go or not , and then i called mummy and decided to continue staying at home coz I’m really very sick . ( Oops my form teacher just called me ) . Okay she said if i'm feeling better tomorrow , i have to go back to school and GO TO CAMP . Oh no i can feel my headache coming , so i bet i won't get well by tomorrow . It's so super irritating . WHY MUST WE GO FOR CAMPS ? BOOHOO . And to add on , other than my flu , I still got my monthly thing -.- I don’t think you teachers would want me to spread my flu to your other dear students and even yourself right ? So why not just let me rest in peace at home and stop calling my parents and me . What’s so important about camps anyway ?! And I doubt you’ll would want to see the sea water turn red while I’m canoeing or playing whatever water games you’ve organised ( polluted by my monthly thing ) . Yucks .

Oh my god bless me please , I’m so screwed up now . What to do what to do ?
And I’m waiting for my Joan baobeiz to wake up now , sucha pig . Ahhhhhhhhhh headache headache .
Anddddd i hate adults , they're so fickled minded and always break their promises and always get affected by another adult . For example , my parents side my teachers more than they side me . That's so sad . I thought blood is thicker than water ? Argh whatever . I hope things won't be difficult later and back at school . Fyi , i really hate my school , coz they seem to always pick on me since last year . Bias shiat .
One of my classmate didn't went to camp as well today , our form teacher called her , and as for me , the principal called my dad AND THEN , my form teacher called me again . What the fag , just save your phone bills pls . -.- You see what i mean now ? I don't mind if the principal calls and praise me AND THEN the teacher calls again to praise me again . But this ? *rolls eyes . I rather not .

Btw , watched " Edge of darkness " on Saturday with Vinc and co. Personally , i swear the movie sucks , ok la , it's not my type . Slept while the movie was screening , while that ass kept whining he's very cold . Lol . I tricked him into eating a salty popcorn . Hoho .

Aww can't wait to start ranting about this to baobeiz later , we'll start our cursing & swearing session soon . hehehe ;-D Never ending laughters whenever she's there . 1314 3344 *winks .
Gonna watch Valentine's day with her , can't wait HOH ! ;-D

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PHOTOS ALL UPLOADED THERE .

OH YOU SHOULD DIE PIMPLY GEISHA !
FUCK YOU IN FACE , YOU SHOULD DIE , FUCK A CAT AND BURN IN HELL .
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Doesn't matter .

I hope you're not reading this .
Yesterday , i saw them together . Omg . It doesn't matter anyway i suppose .
Few nights ago , i told him not to choose 25th , because i want it all by myself . It doesn't matter anymore , does it ?
They were sitting together just a few sits away from me , i was talking and laughing happily with my friends .
Pingrui asked me ; Are you really happy and laughing from the bottom of your heart ? Coz i can sense that you're pretending .
I was at a loss of words , becoz i totally have no idea what i was feeling either . Still , it doesn't matter anymore .
Whenever i think about how sweet they're gonna be in the near future , how she's gonna take away what i used to have , i can't help feeling hatred towards them , how can he forget and get me replaced so fast ? Why am i so selfish ? I'm his nobody anyway , what right do i have to intrude into this ?
3 months ago , i was the happiest girl , 3 months later , idon'tknowwhatami .
However , i think he has made a right decision , becoz when we were together , i feel weird , out of place .
I don't know how to communicate with him , i was so not myself when i'm with him , i was so quiet , unlike my usual self . I tried to fit myself in , but no matter how hard i try , there's still a wall . I wasn't the funny , loud , open , fun Celeste when i'm around him . I really don't know why , it's so strange .
Maybe it's becoz what happened 3 months ago was too sudden . Maybe like what Derrick said , i'm not ready to walk with him the path he's walking . Maybe that's why we're not meant to be . I still don't understand , but it all doesn't matter anymore .
This time round , someone else found him , is she the right owner ? Maybe . But i know i'm not .
No matter how much my heart aches , i'll not look back . It all ends here , today , our suppose-to-be 2nd monthsary .
Why ? Why did you say you want to be my longest on the day you left me ? I hate false hopes . i hate myself . This doesn't matter anymore .
xoxo

Fuck you , fool .
Good luck to you .

My happening life .

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My blog is not getting enough attention from me BOOHOO .
But i still come back once awhile when i feel like it , connect to me using Facebook , i'm active there . Add me ^^

Anyway , caught Daybreaker yesterday with Tristian the caicai . He treated me movie , i treated him dessert , sucha good bargain . Lol .

Rate the movie 4/5 . Was frightened a few times . Btw , it's a nc16 movie .
Home around 11 going 12 . Stared at the ceilings and thought about stuffs ,

wished that i was born a autism kid so i don't have to make decisions on my own ,

so i'll be simple-minded and so people will guide me along my life ,

i would listen and be very well-behaved and so i wouldn't be so stressed up like now ,

and so , maybe i'll be happier . Okay i'm just kidding . Because i think Autism kids have their own frets and troubles too , just that they can't express it out and i think it's much worst to want to express something but have a limited use of language .
So , after i used so much of my brain cells and i think half of them are

stressed to death by me , chatted on the phone with Derrick . Dozed off around 4am .

And i can't believe i'm up so early now . I think i'll sleep like a log in the afternoon .

Suddenly , long to watch a movie with him , there's one coming up on 28jan ,

hope i'll have the courage to ask and he can watch it with me .
Sounds like mission impossible . Haha . If it's possible , it'll be the 4th movie

we watched together .. Never watched so many movies tgt with someone before ,

he's the only . Hehe . I love watching our second movie most because he offered me

his jacket , the third because we were together . Will there be a fourth ? .. And i wish i

can be the one accompanying him on 18feb , i want to see the happy look on his face ,

because when i see him happy , i'll be happy . :-D Haha okay , i think i'm dreaming . Day dream ah . ~
Why doesn't my heart agree with my brain and my brain doesn't agree with my heart ? :-(

My life is so happening these days . Making me so stress and forlorn , though there are happy moments too . One moment i'll be feeling happy & crazy , the next i'll be carrying a sad face . Whatever . So many things lined up for me to write down , but i don't know which to write first , so i'll stop here .

So many , yet none can be compared to you , afterall . xxx

Till then ,
Celeste .

i hate to feel this way .

Feeling so suffocated now .
Who can cheer me up ?
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